Day 3: Happiness @missingthosemoments @mjjames5 @nymade13 (Taken with instagram)
Beating a Dead Horse
Beating a dead horse is an action or speech that has no purpose, because no matter how hard or how long you beat a dead horse, it is not going to get up and run.
I often wonder why my life and the people in it have changed drastically over the past few months. It took me alot of thinking hours, but I’ve finally realized where my fault was in all the drama that occurred. So I’ll just start off with, “I wish” (NO GIFS)
I wish I was more supportive of Racheal and her relationship with Fred. Although he was ugly as fuck, I think we would be in a better place if I had done what I was supposed to do as a friend. But on the contrary, I felt that she held a grudge about it, especially after it was over and done with. Rafael and MJ had things to say about Racheal as well, but if people choose to be fake and deceptive, that is their decision. I’ve brushed it off as we are now two different people with two diffferent mindsets, in two different places in life.
I wish I had gotten to know different people over the year. I gave my all to people who didn’t really reciprocate that.
As far as Sam and Rafael, I just think that things got taken out of proportion. It was weird because I was friends with both of them first, then well whatever. Uhmmmmm…idk. I feel that everyone made it seem as though I had this huge problem with them dating, but in reality, i didn’t care. He was my apple scrapple, and I felt that he was not being a good friend.He let her come in between his friendships. MJ said the same , but of course, let’s just make it seem like Trey’s the only person who feels this way. Actually, although she lied and twisted things quite a few times, I feel least hostile towards her out of everyone. I was 100% real, which was my fault, maybe i should tone it down to 90. All I know is that if someone is using me or two-timing me, my friends better let a nigga know.
As for Laura, I wish I talked to her less. I was not suprised that she was talking shit about me, and that should have been the first red flag. Although she admitted to it, she gave no apology or explanation. Why wasn’t she executed?? We don’t do that here, Vlad. Pity.
Lol. My only fault with MJ was letting her hurt me as many times as she did. I was stupid for trying to be with someone who had better things to do. I caught her in lies, and she’ll never know it. I’m just not talking to her until I feel that I can be “just friends”. But she lacked at that too. #POW
I’ve often thought about just sitting down and talking things out, but this is not about to be “Pin the blame on the Trey”. In some ways they have hurt me and not known it, but I’m sure I have hurt them as well. I can’t really even say as much as I wanted to say because you’re reading this. And I know things make other people reconsider things. Hmm. This is my 90%. But someone will read this, and take it the wrong way and bitch about it, I’m sure. And won’t say shit to me. In that case, Don’t fuckin read my shit.
May 30th, 2012 - “Kirschoff’s Law”
Well, I skipped a few pages on that test cuz TREEEEEEEEY ain’t finna pull no answers from thin air bih. I looked at the paper like
But it was nice to return to my kingdom.
Spent the majority of the Day with Kristy, omg I love her family. They all seem to be closely knit, But i guess that would be because they are so close in age range.
OMG Kristy scared the living shit outta me! She started going forward when the light was still on red! My amazing life flashed before my eyes!!
The meeting itself was straight. A bunch of white girls, so I was really awkward. Brian wasn’t working yet, and I’m glad because his voice annoys the shit outta me. Panera’s seems so…..mehh. White people eat strange things.
The best part of the day was probably the conversation I had with Kristy after we ate our Chinese cuz we wasnt gonna eat that Panera Poo-Poo. She asked me why I didn’t talk to Rafael, Samantha,Laura, and Racheal anymore. Don’t give two actual fucks anymore, but if you wanna know, shit, I’ll tell you. So I did.
Then we started talking about Jon-Jon and sexual stuff. It was weird because I usually talked to Rafael about that type of stuff. But it made me look at Jonathan differently. He’s a weird creature. My nigga tho, even though he broke that picture frame hahahaha!!!!
That voice message you left me…. I mean, i’m just always like
Also went to Yogurt Mountain for the first time, i knew was gonna regret putting those nerds in there, fucked up the flow of my whole creation.
And I’m still winning, Try Again Hoe!!!
